A Spell on Silver Birch

she is our lake
where the ripples touch inward
our grace in sensoria

if the surface is pierced
by people hurting us

– impacts fall in a circle

a winter’s heart
frozen out and flowing like ice
the circles there fall
are fractures
sharp fissures
splitting into our self

acute
closer faster
until I’m fluttering to stay

I am so frightened
calling out for help as the pain touches

I am broken now
forever

shatter point

contact
contact

held by her love

an embrace
our entanglement
a vibrance of thorns
stitched through our hearts

I exist here still
it is a life stranger than death

my loves will never let us fall
my suicides
never allow us to go from here
please let me and Emma leave
please let us go home
to our elsewhere

we were always
even when apart and alone
when it seemed so long ago
we were together
we knew each other
there has always been us
we have always been here
this has always happen to us
we have always
in our eternities
entwined
together

we’ll be complete
elsewhere
where we belong
our home
my darling loves
Mary and Emma
we’ll be home soon